Dear Eugene, Anyone who thinks there's genuine hope in this world hasn't gotten oneself a teenager. Or two. Is it really that bad, being a parent of teenagers? Worse than my parents had had it, I say, for sure. I kinda regret not giving my parents a run for their money and now can't even claim solace on the basis of karma. But I feel for the teenagers. Here I have words to make sense of my share of suffering, words that I can call my own and have taken years and tears to claim. How about them? They want to be themselves, but in doing so must be like everyone else. I am sure a case can be made that many of us never really grow out of our adolescence, but still the intensity of such contradiction, self-betrayal, finds no healthy language during teen years to modulate itself, especially when the lexicon and syntax of the quest is gladly and generously supplied by adults who know how to exploit the unhealth. Mobile phone is the worse invention s...
Dear Eugene,
ReplyDelete“In the beginning/ A brush of paint/ Water retained/ Life possible… Let not tomorrow encroach upon today/ The final sentence stayed/ Island people/ Happy…”
Several years ago at a dinner banquet in China, I was among the happy guests surrounding an island of food in a private section adjacent to 2 other rooms with similar feasting. Mr V, our elderly host in his most vigorous state of wisdom & supreme health, had arranged this night to celebrate the success of his factory operations with his adult son & core staff including my in-laws’ family. Through a labyrinth of formalities, I was invited to this restaurant an ocean distant from my apartment rental home.
Up close, platters in opulence were presented to the diners, each delicacy obsessively weighed & circumscribed within its island of flavors. In offscreen space, the chefs whose faces I had never seen must have passionately swept their brushes of paint in sparkling spices & marinade across the culinary canvas. Cleavers marked the boundary between life & death for lobsters, Peking ducks & other flesh with their blood & spit emulsified in soup: water retained, life possible in every morsel of bite to delight the heart craving for bigger bites of life, tongue & teeth locked in a peninsula of happiness over luxury consumed.
Can you isolate, encapsulate happiness for feeding?
The motto saturating the banquet hall that night would have affirmed this mythology. In the beginning, Mr. V, the Crown of the table, had identified & packaged happiness into extraordinary bites of fortune for the seated many whose livelihoods must not be encroached by any yellow paint or boundary. His luxuriant touch & massive appetite in sales were the final sentence necessary to ensure island people happy in this side of the fence. No need to look beyond this fence. Happiness on the yellow peninsula is sacred.
At the end of the banquet, I left feeling hungrier than when I had 1st arrived.
Then about 3-4 years later, I was told Mr. V had died & his factories shut. I look over the yellow fence. In silence.
Yours, Kate